我们之间的秘密到此

～爱～

真的很难受！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！
你根本就不知道我的难受
我的痛苦 

Butterfly park

woo...

3months I din't update blog. -.-

Don't know where to start and what to write already.@@

Peoples said I always wrote emo emo stuff.

Today change back lo

hmm..

Let's talk about the trips to butterfly park

Thursday which is 6may..

Me,Zul and Warren...We plan there for photoshooting..

Before that day..I search google map...where is the butterfly park..

damn it...It said it is near medan tuanku monorail.

when we reach there...OMG..

We din't saw any sign about this park...Then we go ask people..

They said din't have this place...zzz..google map-.-...

Warren overnight in my prima house..

morning ah...He so pig...said 7am want wake up..zzz

kick him and push him..also cant wake...hahaha

and look like still dreaming and keep ask me go bath 1st..-.-..shhh

OK..then we straight away go by taxi...and ask for butterfly park..

reach there about 10mins .

the entrance was rm18 for adult..(expensive)

then luckily we got student card..rm8 only..haha

The butterfly not really big..

is kinda like a small garden with alot of insect..><

But the butterfly really lots lo...

Besides butterfly..There also have dragonfly too.haha.

Let's show some shoot that I shoot  there..

 

 

 

But seem like I shoot dragon fly more.>.<

That day shooting skill was really bad.

Maybe long time din't shoot.

hmm..

haha..

While shooting,

We also din't forget to self portraits too..xD

There is still Alot..xD

haha.

Then we go masjidjamek burgerking.

then back

Enjoy

黑

黑，

是一种奇妙神秘的颜色，

一种令人容易幻想的空间，

在这样的一种颜色，

一种空间中，

你想到了些什么？
对我来说黑是一种秘密，

一种让人无法猜测的颜色，

它没有其他颜色的美丽，

也没有其他颜色的纯净，

它留给我只有无限的遐想~

黑夜在一个漆黑，

不见五指的夜里，

你会是觉得有一种安全感还是惧怕感？ 

我对这个黑，

实在是有太多的感慨，

我只知道在我每次很寂寞，

很无赖，

很emo的时候，

我是喜欢黑色的，

因为，它给 我一个很广阔，

很隐私的空间，

让我可以静下来~

静下来想很多事情，

在这样的环境中，

我可以任由的放纵自己，

可以发泄心中的一切不满，

可以让我的灵魂得到一 种安慰~

因为我是一个喜欢有什么事情不说出来，

压在心里的人，

一旦爆发了，

所就很难收拾了，

所以我只有在黑夜里排解心中的emo

但是，

有时 还是很怕黑夜，

总觉得有什么ghost在旁边会跑出来，=.=

但是当我一个人在黑夜里还是会想些奇怪的东西，

有人说我是缺乏安全感

可能吧

在我很emo的时候，

我最喜欢做的事情就是，

在黑夜里闭上眼睛，

让自己放松，

脑海里什么也不想，

躺在床上

再听一些很jazz classic 很舒服的歌，

这样，

take a deep breathe，

跟着歌的节奏，

我会觉得心中很舒畅,

黑色的夜，我很喜欢~

我很多灵感都来自黑色的夜里

因为只有在黑色的夜里，

我才能安静的，

冷静的去思考，

去决定很多事情！

B - L - A - C -K 

When I think of you

When I think of you

I will take out the phone,

see whether got your message or reply ornot

although i knew,The chance is so little

Every time ,

I will use my thumb ,

press the key and wrote a lot message and greeting.

but at last I don't press send,because I scare will disturb you

I will open our previous conversation and see,no matter what thing we chat

i feel that there is a taste, the chocolate taste ,is damn sweet

I will throw my sight to the far far place,but I don't know what I am thinking now~

When I think of you,i will think,are you think of me too?maybe,it is just a second ):

At night,dreaming also will dream of hazy part of you,i don't dare to wake up

I just scare,after wake up, you will.......disappears

I will deeply suck the air,get the diffuse air all suck in,to reach the nearest place of the heart

I will keep seeing mirror, see myself,whether I suit you or not　　

I think I am addicted,addictive already

What you know?you know nothing.

Your heart broken ,

living in new life

Is fate that i have a chance to knew you.I wish I can be brave too ! S.W.E.E

魅力

最近的我

有点暧昧

突然有点点的想尝试网恋

赫赫

女人们

让我告诉你

魅力是什么？

魅力不是漂亮

漂亮的女人不一定能吸引我

端庄幽雅的女人我才喜欢

所以你不用担心自己不够漂亮。

今天准备回kl了

开始上课了

那里没得上网

没订

看几时有回来吧生再update一下

目前一直想念一个人

她刚失恋
因为她喜欢上另一个男人
她也不想的
缘份就是这样
还以为不可能认识她的
但现在

身为她的朋友加上思恋

想关心她
可是她一直都没给我回复
做工很忙吧
我该不该一直信息她呢？

还有
钱不够用啊
T.T

男人の心声

男人の心声

每一次、每一次
當我看見他們喝著酒
而那眼睛裡留下的眼淚
我只能用心疼去解釋
雖然不是水汪汪的大眼睛
但是卻有著說不出來的感情
他們不能輕易掉淚
因為現實就是這麼教育
他們流的眼淚叫做“丟臉”
只有在每一次、每一次
受了傷、受了委屈
才能用酒，讓自己舒服一點的發洩

真的已經不知道該怎麼形容
雖然說每一段愛
都有他們最佳相處的方式
但能找到這方式的
能有幾對?
而妳們也總是已經先想好對方“應該”要做的事

不能讓女人哭
不能讓女人等
不能讓女人累
不能讓女人受傷
很多很多的不能
女人的心是易碎品
女人是天上派下來的天使
很多很多的女人很重要

那我真的很想問
男人呢?

男人體貼很重要
男人細心很重要
男人溫柔很重要
很多很多的很重要
男人犯賤通通都一樣
男人下半身思考不要臉
很多很多的男人實在百口莫辯

到這裡我只知道
女人像塊寶
男人是片草

寶
總是被細心呵護
不讓她受到一點點的創傷

草
就是要堅強堅強在堅強
風來順受雨來擋

平平都是人
說起來還真好笑

愛真的有這麼難?
妳們真的不要以為他們什麼都懂
妳們不說
他們永遠不會懂
他們能懂得
也只是在妳們鬧脾氣的時候
乖乖的閃到一邊去
也只是在你們哭泣的時候
坐在你身旁細心的安慰

說真的
女人的眼淚很珍貴
男人的就應該更寶貴
因為他們不會輕易掉淚

很多男人
其實早已放棄愛
所以即使花天酒地
所以即使被女人說成禽獸
他們真的也不在乎
但妳們知道嗎?
或許他們心裡
很期待
很希望
有一個懂他們的人
能出現

我知道這裡女人會問
他們不說
妳們怎麼會懂

那就要問問妳們
有多少給他說的機會
而即使他們真的說了
妳們能相信幾分?
又有多少男人會被現實教育說
“應該把心裡想要的愛大方說出來”呢?

男人跟女人
的確是兩個世界的人
but
其實要了解
並沒有那麼難
不要想的太複雜
對的那個人
不會讓你流淚
這句話是屁

因為流過淚
才會懂得去珍惜
這是事實
也是人最難堪的一部份

在大耳朵honey的Blog看到的这篇很有意思的文章

paste了过来

夜深了

夜深了   
这里没有像kl城市那么吵闹    
只有静静的夜晚
我关掉白灯，然后打开小小的睡灯

虽然只有一点点灯 但它已可以温暖我的心
不像白灯那样cool那么亮  让我没地方躲

家人也睡了
关了门走到窗前
看看夜景
看到路灯也关了 
安安静静的睡了
这个整个世界  
现在好像变成了自己的Stage
可以自由发挥   
但没有人能看到


让我有了答案   
孤独
原来一直令我念念不忘的  
竟然是你
我以为这就是所谓的天长地久
可是
又有谁能坚持到永远呢？

曾今为你擦干眼泪 
 心疼，我也留下眼泪了
心痛
你的眼泪 ， 把肩膀给浸湿了  
滴在我心
你的微笑 ，记忆深刻 
那傻傻的笑声刻在我心


忽然看到几片很坚强的叶子
在树上依依不舍不想离去
看到它们好想要在那棵树过一辈子
可是不能
因为它档不过风 
跟着风而去
很像蜡烛用完它的最后一滴泪
融化，凝结 
还想保持那个光
不可能的

夜深了
黑黑的 
静静的
失去了  
便不再有了
过去了  
不再回忆了

我该睡了
 真希望在梦中
可以寻找着新的火花
我的努力没有白费
可是
看缘份吧
没给我回复
梦中的她
可能不属于我




晚安

CNY 2010

 

Prepare to give angpao

 

Take 1

Take 2

Take 3 (T.T blur)

Take 4

Deng deng Deng deng!

1st day of new year

Others photo not me here.

cant upload le lurh..T.T

Happy Chinese New year

HeartEsthetic

Here you are.

http://j-heartesthetic.blogspot.com/

Anyone that got fate to view my blog.
free then go view this site and comment ya.thankyou..
will appreciate alot..(:

The stronger I'm , the deeper I hurt..

In da past of this few weeks,
My life was suck.
Life getting worst and worst.
Im still in da emo condition everyday every moment

What happen to me?huh?!
I learn lots of thing from others.

Lovelorn?Heartbreak?relationship?FriEndship?family problem?
This is all the fact that make me emo as everyone do.


I have decided to leave you
is not your wrong
is me.is myself fall in love to you
you got your choice,
you feel him,but not me.
you're coming kl today as we promised.
Nop.it not gotta happens.because of him.
I'll leave you so you wont have a chance to think about me
you gotta be happy and sweet with him..
 -I felt bitter because sweet have mixed without knowing-
For now,you're just my pass time.
I promise myself I wont think back
now in da condition of trying.


Sun,you're da best I ever meet.
Sun that make me happy and even smile.
there are not much of them can make me smile through my real feeling.
I like your shining smile that pass through my heart
Hot and warm feeling you gave me I will remember that.
Because of my emo , I make our friendship broken
but we knew,my heart and your heart still keep each other.
In da night,there is dark in my room.
I'll thinking of you sometime about our memories.
I need your warm,your light.
I knew.I don't think about your feeling.
but I care about.I do not know your feeling.
I wanna know.I'm sorry I do not do this last time
but it is past time.it wont back.
and now.i have no more courage to ask you.
maybe I'm wrong.i knew that.
-A sun that light my life feel warm in only a moment-

Parents,sister.
You are the best .
But can you please don't insult me.
can you all give me confident??
don't everyday scold me .
how old I'm?I knew what im doing.
our relationship are getting worst.
if you all care of me.then give me confident
I had never told you all my feeling.
I just keep in my heart.
everyday on computer,because im doing my stuff.
I'm not like secondary play games.
ya.I'm addicted.im addicted to learn thing from web.
I'm designer.
I need to search alot of thing from web and do pratical in designing.
I learn from others.
outing?ya.i will out when i feel to.i want to learn outside thing too.
I knew what situation in our family now.
we are really poor.but i knew dad mum u are trying your best too.
do you all knew how hard I'm trying?wont.
Without transport,
I really cant do much thing.i need it.
I need it for my future and you all too.
I'm the only one guy in da family.i need to takecare of you all later .
can you all support me ??

That day,
in da night after dinner,I went cycle around klang non stop for few hours
almost every area i have been.
my shirt was full of sweat.
my leg was pain.
I want to release my emo!!
when I cycle,I felt that I'm so lonely.
sorry I'm the person that wont tell my feeling forward to all of you.
Just want to tell you all, I LOVE YOU DAD MUM and SIS.



I need care from the one that I want he/her to care about me
not the one I don't want. sorry ,but I appreciate and feel touch too.
but there is no one that really care me also.
because I emo , they cant accept it.so they just leave me
Sometime,
When I was emo-ing,find someone to chat.
hope to be friend.
hope to get 1 more friend that care of me.
They wont reply.because I'm just stranger for them.
They though I want chase them.No!
I just need care!
I care of people, But people dont care about me.
why?Izit because I'm guy(for girls)?Only girls need care?
I'm So speechless and disappointed always


I'm a happy boy before,
why i will become like that.
all because of relationship
I'm stronger now.
But

The stronger I'm ,the deeper I hurt.
-------------------------------------------------------
This panda toy is gift by my oldersister.
Just emo-ing that time and play with my camera.
than i snap this and put this 5 picture in 1.

Panda,why your eyes looks happy
why you did not have tear
why you're having colorful life
Why?
See through your eyes
and look like you are telling me
Don't cry because it's over
Smile because it happened
Happiness is when your mind is thinking through your heart.

Exam exam

hey there.
I left two subject to prepare.

i dont know what happen to this examination
i quite relax.
dint prepare..haha
ready to die..
but..no la..i can do it!

wish me goodluck :)..

till 23th January .
hey friends.
any event please
Invite me invite me.

I gotta have fun this coming holiday.

ha?
i dont know what happen to me this few day.
Sorry for those i put my emo feeling to u all.
I really do not mean to hurt u all.

My hair

I dye my hair
the last time i dye my hair is two years ago.
what color i dye?
is one kind of green.
but after dye.it appears brown with little of green
you cannot see well there is green color.
but when there is white light up there.
you can see there is dark green there.
kinda special right?

but it wont last long.:(

____________________________

If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were

Light Painting

I was get bored in my home
then i just take some shoot in my house.
tripod dint at my home.
use chair as my tripod.kinda pity.haha

ps:Those light effect is not edited in photoshop



__________________________________________
Lonely Heart

If I had a heart I'm sure it would say
How lonely its been since you went away,
With no one to snuggle and no one to hold.
I guess I'll adjust, or so I've been told.

It's hard to sit back as the line seems to grow
And watch all the flirting, when deep down I know
There's nobody there who can know your heart
Or feel your thoughts even though apart.

To know your thoughts with just one word
Without the others being heard.
To feel your heart and share what you love
Like some magic secret from up above.

The music flows and so do the smiles
From you to them across the miles.
Even our songs that were special there
Are followed by smiles for all to share.

I guess it's me... I just don't understand
You told me you loved me and held my hand.
How can I trust anything you say,
When I'm yesterdays news the very next day.

If I had a heart it would beat in place
Instead of having this empty space.
And yours would beat along with mine,
And I'd be yours til the end of time.

______________________________________________________
Natural Love














Oh, loving you
Comes easily to me
It's what I'm living for
It's all in the chemistry
Baby, loving you
Is how it's meant to be
It's something that is
So natural to me.

____________________________________________________

Star Of My Life
















A look from you is as blinding as the sun,
As stunning as your eyes I lose myself in.
A look from you is as pure as the clear blue sky,
When I'm with you.

Every minute I'm not around you,
I feel like I left something behind.
Every time I'm not looking at you,
I feel like I am blind.

渺小的我

好久没updated了
这次是我第一次用华语写
我华语不是很好

2009年经历了很多
09还真的过得蛮充实下
好像每天都不得空这样
学了很多东西
参加了很多活动
还做了班长=D
不过还真的是很累很累
有点空闲时间我就去休息了
不懂为什么
09年真的很像猪
很早就睡了
不能撑到很迟
很多朋友都很少联络了
不是我忘了他们
是我很忙
对不起朋友们

09对艺术这东西的了解不是很多
09年真的一瞬间把我变得很有艺术感
艺术变成了我的生活的一部份
到现在
我个人认为
艺术是感觉
有了感觉就有艺术

为什么
天要把我变成人
人真的是很烦恼
做人真的是没有意义的
人生出来到死
你们认为有什么意义吗？
人活下来为了什么
是他们自己的未来吧
友情，爱情
不管什么情
这些也不只是个应酬而已
为了生活就要应酬这些
没了这些
生活还有什么
最终的目的不就是钱

如果你说为了不会有这样的想法
就去做些有意义的事
做好事
你就不会后悔做人
但
这也不只是一个方法用来逃避

哎
总之做人真的很惨

我喜欢神秘
不是喜欢孤独
只是喜欢一个人做自己想要做的事
不喜欢跟其他人一起做事
但在我生活就没办法
一定要和其他人一起完成
像我说的
就只是个应酬

懂jumper这部戏吗？
如果我是他就好了
我可以做任何想做的事
哈哈

我所说的我并不喜欢孤独
所以我希望我会找到一个能和我一起打天下的女人
支持我想要做的事。
哈！
有没有可能啊？
我倒霉
我曾遇过的女人都很花心
被抛弃
现在有了恐惧感
所以
我不敢对一个女人抱太大的希望阿
有了她
会对她痴情
但
还是会去认识世界各地的女人
但都只是朋友
就只是要真正的找到最好的
所以
我会给人说
我很花心
但我不承认

有些女人
不能体谅对方
不是不爱她们
是太忙了
再挨一下
就可以很幸福了阿
但他们
觉得这爱情过得和辛苦
就选择放弃了
这只是暂时性啊


就是这样
我又被抛弃了
哈哈
又难过又开心

我对那种我想做的事
我都会对这些事要求很高
并会不折手段
这就是我

有人说
我没有责任感
但我说
我很有责任感
当然
我还是会犯错的

我很相信天蝎座
我觉得天蝎座的性格就是我的性格
不懂
也许我错了
哈哈
别忘了
我超喜欢紫色的

-----------------------------------------------------

今天是2010年的第一天
我要做些什么呢
顺其自然吧
总之就要尽量做到最好的
我最希望的就是我身边的人
都会支持我做任何事
帮我~
指导我~
吸取其他人的优点

为我自己加油！
gogo！！
我可以的！

还有我所说的一切
一定会有人认为是错的
也许我还不够成熟

不喜欢做人
但还是做了

新的一年
新的开始


HAPPY NEW YEAR